This was another week that just flew right by. The biggest challenge for me was to just keep up with the daily honorable tasks again. I could list a whole slew of excuses why I couldn’t keep up, like shoveling snow (that’s right, I’ve said that four letter curse word). This led me to believe my old blue blueprint is putting up a real hard fight to stay in control. That Ol’ Blue Print of mine seems to stick to the same answer, when I know I must give it a 100%: “….Riiight….”

Although I’m regrettably slipping to my old self this week, I do see a lot of things improved within myself compared to what I use to be when I started MKMMA. Like instead of dreading doing daily services like washing the dishes, or taking the dogs for a piddle, I tend to focus more and more on the plans on achieving what I want out of life, what I want to become and being more grateful of what I already have right now! Knowing that persistence is key, I keep telling myself: Do It Now, Do It Now, Do It Now!

The fight of positive thinking is still continuing for me this week, it reminds me of the fight scene between Sherman Klump and Buddy Love in The The Nutty Professor. I keep thinking positive thoughts right after negative ones as instructed, and when I start thinking of what to write for my next blog post, I always think what I have difficulty with in this week of this amazing journey of MKMMA, rather than what’s actually going right! Not only I caught it myself, but, someone actually pointed that out to me earlier this week as well.

It was rather an interesting week other than swatting at negative thoughts like annoying mosquitoes, in fact I feel happier and more relaxed than I use to be during the previous weeks. The thing though is that there’s still a negative voice that keeps popping up that tries to put a dampener on my Good Vibes, but I keep thinking to myself “KEEP THINKING AND FEELING GOOD”, I know that negative voice is likely those pesky peptides in my mind screaming Feed Me, Feed Me Now!!! I’m really looking forward in whats to come next week.

No opinions (unless someone asks for it) and no negative thinking….. you can imagine this is NOT easy. What I thought of first was the scenes in Analyze That when Paul Vitti (Robert De Niro’s character) is trying his best to go clean from his Mob Life while trying working on a few new jobs, one of them being a Jewelery Store Clerk.

This was really what goes through my mind these last past few weeks, “Crap, that’s an opinion.” or “WOW, what a Negative Thought!”. It’s clear that these are deeply rooted habits, like somebody that is a mobster his entire life, then all of a sudden he try’s to go clean. Clearly not an easy goal to achieve at first, in fact having a few negative thoughts was something I have noticed in myself before I have started here with MKMMA (Ok ok I admit, I have ALOT of Negative thoughts!). I do believe that I have slowed down my negative thinking, but it is still something that I have great difficulty on overcoming. I suppose you can’t eliminate negative thinking entirely, but I surly have more negative thoughts than positive ones. Which that makes me think of Sideshow Bob on The Simpsons when he walks on the same rakes and hits him in the face when he turns around and walks the other direction.

There’s even times I also even stop to think to myself “Is ‘Good Morning!’ a opinion?” Yup it is. But the thing is, I figured that kind of opinion is an “programmed opinion”, because its what we were taught to say to somebody when we first seen him or her today. So I think saying something like Good Morning, Good Day, Good Afternoon, Good Evening, or my personal favorite “Good Morning” quotes…

is fine to say, I think this is one of those exceptions that goes under “If somebody asks for your opinion”.

The jist for me with the “Replace every negative thought immediately with a positive thought.” reminds me of the “Good Idea, Bad Idea” segment from Animaniacs but in reverse, “Bad Idea, Good Idea”:

For me the first few days doing this exercise, I was pretty forgetful, but surprisingly it become easier within the first few days. I still catch myself though when I get caught up with somebody elses opinion, especially negative ones. Although this exercise  is becoming easier for me compared to earlier this week, it’s still pretty difficult to completely avoid it since I over hear what somebody else says what they seen or heard off the TV, a magazine, Facebook or some other news driven media.

With the practice this week, what I’ve keep thinking to myself now is: “Just focus on the *POSITIVE* Dillon, no need to get into that big steaming pile of Male Cow Poo!”, then think whats the positive version of what previously thought moments before.

This week felt like it just flew by! It is quite a challenge for me to keep up with my daily routine and services (I still catch myself saying chores 😛 ) that I must get done with the daily Honor Requirements. It almost felt like the beginning of Spider Man 2 when Peter was late delivering pizzas to the customer. Although I wasn’t technically late on doing anything this week (that I could recall), time just seemed to fly right by!

 

What I really struggle though is the reading ‘services’ specifically.  I consider myself a somewhat of a slow reader.  Oh wait.  I take that back… that was an opinion.

Why I consider myself a slow reader is that because my mind wonders off and thinks of something else while I read, and thus not really paying attention to what I am reading. At which point I catch myself and need to reread what I just read.

Since reading “Scroll II” in The Greatest Salesman in the World 3 times a day, The Master Key Part 6 once a day, and other reading material daily for our Honor Requirements, it’s pretty difficult for me to concentrate what I read, let alone reading it WITH enthusiasm!

My Mom had an epiphany last night.  She remembered that there are audio recordings as well as printable PDFs of The  MasterKey System that we read once a day . So why not listen to the audio while reading the “Part” we are currently on for the week to help to stay focused! Like my Mom, I wish one of us thought of it sooner than we did.

This leads me to have the same question that my Mom has, what do you do to help youself concentrate on your daily MKMMA readings?