The animated movie Madagascar has popped into my head this week. I found that this movie described how cement covers our Golden Buddha, which is “Not Natural” to our true selves. Every species on our planet has a purpose in life, and so do we. But like the characters in Madagascar, we were molded into a false concept of who we are (or what we should be) by societies ideas of what we should be. It’s like we’re acting a part of some fictional character, and in a sense without even realizing it.

Although I may not know what I want out of life, but with the help from MKMMA, I am believing that I’m having more and more of a understanding and awareness of who I am as in my true self.

The challenge for me is still my sits. Not sitting for 15 minutes for say, but finding that one quiet spot that I could go to, away from the everyday noise, ether if it’s off TV, emails/facebook/twitter, cellphones, generally technology, Magazines, news, and other media, people talking in the other room, dogs barking, cats playing and so on. The closest way for me to eliminate that outside racket is to put on mellow music with no singing with my headphones on. However that’s a contradiction…. its still noise.

Where I am right now in my life, it’s rather hard to go into complete silence for 15 minutes, yet alone the exercise of a few days of good ol’ quiet solitude. I am all in for doing it, but trying to figure out how to make it happen is seemingly impossible at the moment.

After reading this of Self‐Reliance by Ralph Waldo Emerson – 1841, I immediately thought of this part of Lord of the Rings The Fellowship of the Ring

I have been reviewing my DMP, and how does it fit with my true self. The thing is that it’s still feel really clunky and off for me, even after reading it for 3 times every day. I have a real strong sense of who my “Future Self” is as an individual, but a lot of the Future Stuff and Events that is in my DMP feels out of place, or it’s not me as in now or in the Future Self sense.

It’s not that I don’t find anything about attending events, or going to new places I would love to go, or having a new place to live in ISN’T what I desire. I simply find it easier to view myself now and in the future tense, as whom I am as a person, and not by the stuff, events, and/or status that is in my DMP.

Quite frankly it was kind of a weird, but amazing week for me. For what ever reason I was feeling down and depressed, and I have been noticing that I have been catching myself settling for less. BUT I have been replacing these negative thoughts with what I am aiming for in my DMP & positive feelings without much effort! I know my old blue print is still lingering, but a more positive blue print is starting to counter react that old blue print with a lot less effort and faster than before.

I can’t exactly name a BIG one, but just in subtle everyday things.   I haven’t been stressing over daily tasks like I typically do, like blogging, or meeting new people. Or getting pissed off about a ‘Service’ as much because I felt like it’s a time waster (although it’s technically not).

For example, I absolutely love cooking, but I felt I had better things to focus on than washing dishes.  How can washing dishes be a waste of time when you need them to cook and eat with?  It takes a lot longer and is more frustrating to have to stop and wash a spatula or frying pan while in the process of making a wonderful meal instead of having them all clean and ready for use before even starting to cook.

I’m beginning to understand that one of my old blue prints slogans was: