During this week I have noticed that I have become more and more laid back, and not as stressed over the things I need to get done, like I was when I started MKMMA. The way I am now makes me think of how laid back Adam Sandler’s character Longfellow Deeds from Mr. Deeds is.

 

Where as before I started MKMMA I was more like Thaddeus Plotz, the height-impaired, hot-tempered, money-grubbing, picky and stubborn CEO of the Warner Bros. Studios from the cartoon Animaniacs. Little things would irritate me.  I would stress over how I would accomplish things I wanted to do, get cranky because I thought doing chores was wasting my time that I could be doing something else.  Whether it was a simple chore like washing the dishes, or completing a school exam.  Even entertainment left me feeling guilty because I felt that I should have been ‘working’ instead of enjoying myself.

I had absolutely no balance.  Never satisfied.  Hard to please.  Never happy.  But now things are different.  Even with all the extra stuff I have added to my day with the readings and sitting and MKMMA activities, Im getting more accomplished and have much much more balance in my life and a lot less guilt about taking some me time.